Guys, I am so overwhelmed. I hate my current temp job. My boss makes me feel this small on a daily basis. Jason is waiting to hear from the schools he applied to for his doctorate and it's slow going, which is driving us both bonkers. Waiting is so hard! Not knowing where we'll be in 5 months, (you know, where we'll be living, working, a whole new state/city) or if we'll be moving, is making me crazy. I like to plan and this whole situation is not my cup of tea. It's the anti-plan plan. UGH. This whole period thing (or absence of my period) is making me an emotional wreck and has also bloated me up beyond recognition, to the point where my belly doesn't feel like it's mine anymore, and my clothes don't fit. Money is tight. My health insurance goes up 10% in April and I need to switch to CalCobra because I've exhausted Cobra benefits. {Because of my heart surgeries and pacemaker, I don't qualify for individual insurance, and since I'm not working and Jason is a student at a school that doesn't offer health care benefits for spouses of students, I have to pay up the WAZOO for HMO health insurance, to the tune of $1100 a month}. Did I mention I'm the only one working because he's a full time student and his schedule doesn't allow for him to hold a job?? Lastly, which really is the straw currently breaking this poor camel's back, I am a mentor to my sorority from college and there is major drama there that is leaking in to my life and taking over. So. I can't breathe and it sucks.
One day at a time....
:-( Oh gosh, that really stinks. I'm sorry to hear that. I still can't believe AF didn't fully come! GRR! Sending big hugs.
ReplyDeleteYea, it royally stinks. I'm beginning to feel like I'm never going to get my period ever again, which I know isn't true but I'm just so frustrated with my body and I feel so helpless. I can't even have a cycle for goodness sakes, let alone ovulate (which I don't do without help). You can't have a baby without a mature egg... Hoping the pink turns into something over the next few days, but it didn't overnight and the pink is gone this morning. Maybe it'll come back during the day?? :'(
Deleteoh my goodness. i feel your pain with the temporary jobs, crazy ass boss, feeling slightly nomadic, an altogether too empty bank account, and a barely-there husband. i feel like this is supposed to be fun times- we're young, should be having adventures in new places, but really all i want is stability, a fulfilling job, and a place to call our own. i'm trying to find the bright spots in the grad school situation, but it's not always an easy task. helps to know we're not the only ones though!
ReplyDeleteoh yeah and tell those sigmas to get their scheisse together! daisy heads, don't make me some down there!