Cycle Day 21/Memorial Day

Tomorrow is cycle day 21, ie the day I usually get my blood drawn to test for ovulation...but I can't because tomorrow is also Memorial Day and the labs are closed. So I will go on Tuesday instead and hope that the levels are still relevant. The nurses said they should be, but it's the word 'should' that worries me. Just because something 'should' be, doesn't mean that it 'is'. And don't we all know that's the truth? Because by now, we 'should' be parents. We 'should' be pregnant with child #2, or #3 or in some cases, #4 or higher, depending on how long you've been playing the infertile game. 'Should' doesn't really mean anything to me, but I have no choice: cycle day 22 it is.

We got some {word used very loosely} clarification from the nurses about how many more tries we have left at home before moving on to IUI when we went to pick up my blood work lab sheet on Friday. Originally, the plan was 5 tries/5 months at home. We are technically on month 4 but I was curious if month 2 counted since I didn't ovulate. No egg, no baby, no matter how hard you try. I had called and asked for clarification on this 2 weeks ago, but the doctor was on vacation so the nurse said she would leave a note for him in my chart and he would get back to me when he returned. Well, he never did. Shocker. So on Friday, I asked again, and she said they count ovulatory cycles. So I said, "Ok, so we're technically on cycle 3 then", and she said, "Well, if you're not responding to the medication, we usually recommend that you move on to something more aggressive", to which I responded, "Well the first month I ovulated, but then 2nd month I didn't, so my dosage was increased and the 3rd month I ovulated again," to which she then replied, "Oh! So you're responding then", and I said, "yes", and she said "Ok, well, still, if you're not getting pregnant after 5 cycles, then you should think about moving on" ... Does anyone else see the circular cycle of this conversation?? So yes, I say we got "some" clarification. Oy. Sometimes I really miss my old clinic. Needless to say, regardless of that conversational nonsense, if this cycle doesn't work, we still have at least one, maybe two, depending on your interpretation of the above exchange, tries at home left before moving on to IUI. What I can't adequately reproduce for you here, is the nurse's tone, which suggested that she thought I 'should' have {there's our favorite word again} conceived by now, so what's the point? If it hasn't worked yet, it probably won't so you might as well move on to IUI.

Have I mentioned how much I miss my other clinic??