Something good

A step in the right direction was confirmed today: I OVULATED!!! I called the nurses station at my new clinic and they looked up the results for me {why they don't call me with the results, I just don't know} and...14.6! Up from 0.6 last cycle so yea, big improvement. HUGE in fact. The nurse I spoke to was happy with the number and said to test in about a week or 10 days, which would be cycle day 32-35. I have longish cycles so this works for me.

Other than being thrilled, I am actually a bit shocked. More than a bit, quite a lot, actually. My grandpa passed away unexpectedly when I was taking my femara meds and ovulation, should it happen, was "scheduled" to occur between his burial and memorial {not exactly the happiest of times}, not to mention the fact that we were feeling anything but amorous given the fact that we'd just suffered a death in the family. But, I took my meds, tried to stick to my fertility diet, tried to exercise when I could {which actually only ended up being twice} and was honest with myself about not pushing the "business" part of conception: if we felt like it, we soldiered ahead; if not, we went to sleep because we both needed the rest {oh yea, Jason was also in the middle of finals when my grandpa passed...good times}. With all of the driving back and forth, the grief and stress, and not really sticking to my diet as I "should", I thought for SURE I wouldn't ovulate. I prepared myself for another disappointment, and had all but written out a script for what I would say to the doctor after I got the bad news to explain to him why this month shouldn't count due to x, y and z. {This is month 3 out of 5 of our at home trying before he recommends we move on to IUI's so it was important to me to get him to see my point of view...} Guess I don't have to worry about having that conversation after all! :)

I know that just because I ovulated doesn't mean I'm pregnant. Duh. I know that, way better than most, unfortunately. But it does mean we have a chance at being pregnant. I released an egg, possibly more than one, and we did do our "business" at least once during the opportune fertile window, so it's possible. And that's all that matters: it's POSSIBLE.

Please, keep your fingers, legs, arms, eyes, crossed. If this month didn't take, we only have two more months of trying at home before we are advised to move on to IUI. This whole process has already turned in to a long, arduous take-home science project and we would really LOVE to be able to miraculously conceive at home, instead of on a table in a doctor's office. We've done 2 IUI's in the past and they're not terrible, but they're a hell of a lot less romantic than being in the arms of the one you love.

As always, we appreciate your support!