Arizona, and the dreaded 2ww

First things first. We finally booked our trip to Arizona! We waited out the fluctuating prices on hotels.com and got our flight + 5-night stay + car package for a really good deal! This will be such a good thing for us: a chance to relax, see some beautiful sights and enjoy being together. It was hard making the final move to book it, since money is tight right now with all of my medical bills and after just having paid taxes (that's a whole other subject), but it's something we need to do for us and it's definitely something fun to look forward to!

And now, the 2ww. As with most things these days, there is a certain "lingo" that one becomes accustomed to seeing and using in this age of the acronym. And infertility is no different. The "dreaded 2ww" stands for the two week wait, which is the span of time between ovulation and when I can test for pregnancy. It's called that because, as you can well imagine, waiting is the most nerve-wracking part. Especially when you're infertile because this is not your 2nd or 3rd try, this is usually the umpteenth time you've done this wait and it gets more and more difficult as each month passes. For us, it's month 17th. This is the time in which we just have to hope and pray that things actually worked out for us this month, that the cells are dividing and multiplying and the new little "Nam-to-be" is making it's way up to my uterus as we speak. We've done all that we can, and now...we wait. Two LOOOONG weeks.

I know two weeks doesn't seem like a long time, and in the scheme of things, it's not, but again, this isn't the 2nd, 3rd or even 10th time we've done this, so we (especially me) gets very anxious and you start looking (even subconsciously) for little signs that this month is "different" than the others. This is "the one." Sound a bit crazy? It is.

So put your praying caps on, folks, and please pray and hope for our success this month: pray that our prayers are answered and our dream of becoming parents takes root. Cross your fingers, toes, eyes and anything else you can think of. Imagine how cute our little baby Nam will be. Pray that our trip to Arizona is more celebratory than we ever imagined. Amen.