First of all, thank you all for your kind words of support following my last post. As I'm sure you can tell, I'm struggling with where we are and why we're here, and the uncertain future that we infertiles face, which only seems to worsen after a miscarriage. I think everything is magnified right now due to the holidays and the supposed cheer and joy we usually at least attempt to feel, and I'm just not feeling it this year - which is hard for me, because normally, I'm all about Christmas. I think I'm seriously one of the merriest people I know around the holidays and it pains me to feel so anti-everything cheerful this season. But I'm hopeful that I'll still find my Christmas spirit, that it's just tucked away somewhere safe and will show itself before the holidays come to a close. At any rate, I'm so grateful to have you all on my side - thank you, friends, from the bottom of my heart.
Secondly, I started my period yesterday and get this: it was a perfect 28-day cycle. Can you believe it?? My first post-miscarriage period last month was almost exactly 4 weeks after the miscarriage occurred, which surprised me. I've never been on time when it comes to my cycles, and I thought for sure the miscarriage would mess me up further. So this current period really shocked me. 28 days. Me. I used to have 28-day cycles when I was on the pill, but even before the pill I was a 32-34 day cycle gal, and after stopping the pill, I was all over the freaking map. And now, perfect cycle status. I'm hesitant to even think it but...could my system have actually semi-regulated itself following my miscarriage? I've heard of it happening, but I really, honestly didn't think it would happen to me. I'm definitely encouraged, although my pessimistic infertile mind cautions me against feeling encouraged. But how can I not? If my cycles stay consistent, it would be a huge step in the right direction. I'm tempted to do an ovulation kit next month and see if I'm ovulating on my own. But for now, let's not get ahead of ourselves. That's how people get their hopes dashed.
Still, there is cause to feel "up". And I'll take it, that's for damn sure.
Yay for a perfect cycle! I hope this is a good sign for things to come. I just read your last post, and it really struck a chord with me. I can relate hun. I remember the first time I felt that way. But I pray your miracle is right around the corner! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThat is pretty awesome news! I can't remember a time since you have been off the pill that you had perfect timing with your cycles 2 months in a row! I'm definitely going to put some possitive hope in that. If anything, it at least shows that your body is doing OK after the miscarriage and that is a good thing. Love you. XoXo
ReplyDeleteHi there! Stopping by after I found a link to your page on Mel's in the Round-up. So sorry to hear all that you have been through and the Holidays just magnify it for sure. We suffered a miscarriage this year too and it is absolutely devastating. Take time for yourself and your hubby. xoxo
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