I gave in

My back pain was getting worse, the pressure and uncomfortable feelings when I needed to pee and afterwards returned, and I got a horrible back spasm right around where my kidneys are this morning which freaked me the heck out, soooo I gave in. Actually, my mom told me to "take the damn pills" and since mother's know best, I took the damn pill. One with lunch, the next will be taken with dinner. I haven't gotten the results back from the culture that was sent to the lab but if this isn't an infection, I don't know what else it could be! Sure feels like one. Plus, the in-house test they did showed probability so I need to go with that and just let it go.

I feel better about taking them. I got the opinion of a high risk OB at UCLA who said they are what is most commonly prescribed with UTI's and bladder issues during pregnancy and to definitely take them if needed. If I can't trust a high risk OB from one of the best medical centers in the nation, who can I trust? Also, my best friend is a biochemist and she explained to me why antibiotics don't effect babies in utero: the molecules are too big to pass through the placental barrier as they are designed to help the body they are ingested by and to target specific areas of the body, unlike illegal drugs and alcohol which are absorbed by the body much more due to their small molecular size. I love having such smart friends, thanks Steph!!

So I hope to feel some relief soon. It's so hard to know what to do. I've been drinking water and unsweetened cranberry juice like crazy but it's not enough. I have to do what's going to get rid of the infection and keep us both safe, and not allow the infection to run rampant through my system and potentially harm the baby. And I need to learn to trust the professionals. I just want to give my baby the best chance possible - I want to do what's best for him/her and I thought trying to do so without meds was the best choice. But it wasn't working, it wasn't enough, and I just hope and pray that this baby stays strong and healthy!!!

Our first ultrasound is on Monday.... (!!!!)