I started spotting a bit yesterday. More so today. Actually, if we're being truthful, it was more like pink mucus. And bits of tissue. Yes, that's right, tissue. Because this time, I'm bleeding out our baby. I can't tell you how much it pains me to wipe, see those little pink pieces, and then toss them away into the toilet bowl. Like they're nothing. But they are something - the biggest of somethings.
Please, Lord, please don't draw this out. Please don't make this good-bye any harder than it already is. And please, welcome our little one with open arms. Please take good care of our baby, and please tell him/her that they are perfect, that our love for them is beyond measure, that we were and are so honored to have been handpicked to be their mommy and daddy. That we know they tried their best to stay, but they couldn't. That it's ok. We'll always love them, always miss them, but we understand that they had to go, and it's ok. Until we meet again, Sweet Baby, you're forever in our hearts.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. (((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. I love the words you wrote to your baby. I don't know if this will help you but it helped me when I lost my babies. "Jesus, I wanted to put my child upon my knee and tell him all about You. Since I never got the chance will You put him on Your knee and tell him all about me?" He will take good care of your baby. Jesus loves the little children, no matter how small.
ReplyDeleteOkay, balling. I'm so hurting for you guys and your little precious angel. May your hearts mend soon. xo
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's so hard to know something was there and now it's gone. I hope you get to be a mom again soon for a long LONG time!! Sending hugs!
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending you love and peace. I'm sorry you are going through this.
ReplyDeleteI cannot even begin to imagine that pain. I will pray that this ends as fast as possible for you. Love you with all my heart! I'm so heartbroken for you all. XxXx
ReplyDelete*hugs* thinking of you
ReplyDelete*BIG HUGS*
ReplyDeleteI am just so heartbroken for you. It's so unfair :( I wish there was something more I could say or do. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteIn tears reading this. I'm featuring this post tomorrow on my blog for Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Melissa, I'm so, so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your kind words of love and support. Jason and I are getting by one day at a time and trust in the belief that this is part of our journey, for better or worse, and that one day, we'll be blessed with another child, one who will grow healthy and strong. And Keiko, I am honored to be a part of your Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day blog post.
ReplyDeleteMeliss, it takes such courage to write about this so honestly and openly. I am sobbing. You are truly an amazing person and I am hurting for your loss. You deserve to be happy. Meliss. I am proud and blessed to have you as one of my dearest friends, and I believe with everything in me that your baby will be welcomed with warmth and love by those who've gone before. xoxo
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