Bittersweet

Jason and I traveled to Virginia this holiday season to spend time with family and we had a great trip. It was a relatively quick little jaunt (5 days total, although 2 were spent traveling...you know how it goes: flights, layovers, airports, bah!) but we did have enough time to spend a day in DC together which we really enjoyed. And of course, it was great to have the Nam family together. On our last night there, we all went out to dinner and Jason's brother and his wife made an announcement: they are expecting a baby in August. We did have a bit of notice. Jason and his brother took a walk earlier that day and his brother broached the subject with him, saying that if we were uncomfortable with being there for the announcement, as they know of our infertility struggles and want to be sensitive to that, they would do it another time. However, we felt that since they are moving soon and won't be near family for a good amount of time, that it was a good time to make the announcement and gave it our "blessing." Jason and I both thought it was so sweet of them to approach us beforehand and really appreciated their thoughtfulness. We are happy for them, but sad for us. This was especially bittersweet: being an Uncle and an Aunt is truly a blessing (we think of our little cousins Jake and Brady [who is our godson as well] as our nephews) but it is also difficult to accept that we are still not parents, even after nearly 3 years on the path. We trust that in good time, when the time is right and when we are meant to be parents, that we will be blessed with a child (or children) of our own, but it is hard to watch those we love continually achieve our dream ahead of us. But such is life and we are happy for them and wish them all of the best.