Another set back

Last Friday, during my usual day 3 cycle ultrasound, they found I had a huge residual cyst on my right ovary (56mmx44mm) roughly the size of a golf ball or a bit bigger (small tennis ball) left over from my last cycle. Obviously not encouraging. So I was told to check back with them on Monday to make an appointment to see Dr. Surrey so he could check on it and talk with us about our options going forward. I had my appointment with him today and found out that the cyst is still there, hasn't gotten any smaller and actually seems to have grown a bit. Again, obviously not encouraging. The only good news is that is is clear and fluid filled so not cancerous. I have to wait until my next cycle (roughly 3 more weeks) to get blood work done and have another ultrasound to see if the cyst is gone or shrinking on it's own or not. If it's not gone, I will have to have it removed via laproscopic surgery. They cannot allow a cyst of that size to stay on my ovary. As it is, I won't ovulate this cycle (so it's hindering my fertility even more) and I can't exercise because there is a huge risk the cyst can burst, which would permanently damage my ovary and send me to the ER. Things just keep getting better.

Dr. Surrey said that although it's frustrating and scary, the cyst may be a blessing in disguise of sorts because if they do end up having to remove it laproscopically, it would enable them to take pictures of my reproductive tract and figure out definitively what is going on and why we are not conceiving, which would help them better determine which steps to take next on our fertility journey. I DO NOT enjoy the idea of surgery, I am terrified they will find something really horribly wrong with me, but I also feel like we're getting closer to figuring out what's really going on. And hopefully, the cyst will go away on it's own and it won't be a problem. I just really need things to look up. Something positive and good has to come from all of this...right?