No growth = CD3

Yes, you read the title correctly. My eggs showed no growth {and in fact actually shrunk since my CD12 ultrasound...infuriating, let me tell you} so the Dr. suggested we don't wait for a period and pretend that today is CD3 instead of CD14 and take medication again today through "CD7". Since I didn't want this to be a lost month, I jumped on that option. The doctor said it's not common knowledge but there is actually more than 1 opportunity per month to grow eggs. "Normal" women don't need these other opportunities but women like me, PCOS women, do oftentimes benefit from these additional chances to grow eggs. He said it's like the ocean, like tides. A woman's hormones fluctuate up and down throughout the month and if you ride one of these fluctuations, it's possible to get results. He said he has had a lot of success with this method. He also increased my Femara dosage to 5mg {up from 3.75mg}. I had suspected that my body was no longer responsive to my current dosage and voiced my concern before we started this whole process 2 weeks ago, but the nurse said that since I had ovulated 3x on the med dosage I was on, it was best to stay on it. Looks like someone knows her body better than the professionals do...just sayin'.

I woke up and today was CD14. This same day has become CD3. Weird. I will take my 5mg of Femara tonight through CD7. I have an ultrasound on CD13, which is Friday, Sept. 2. I am a mix between angry, frustrated, defeated, and afraid. I'm angry at my body for being so stubborn, and frustrated that although I'm a healthy weight, I take my vitamins every day, I'm following my fertility diet, etc etc etc I still can't seem to get the basics to happen. Production of a viable egg is BASIC. I feel broken and defeated, and I am so fearful that my body will continue to be unresponsive to oral meds and the big guns will have to be called in. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers. I don't want to give up: on myself; on our dream of becoming parents; on hope.

Please help us keep our hope alive.