...that is the question. I am on day 43 of my cycle - no period and I am not pregnant. I tested yesterday and this morning. So technically, I should call my specialist and tell them so I can be instructed on what to do next. But, for some reason, I just don't want to. Is it bad that I'm already dreading re-entering the infertility culture? It is a way of life - you live and breathe your cycle, and I fear that because my cycle isn't cooperating that I will be put on that dreaded drug, metformin. Again. The issue I have with going on that drug this time is two fold: 1) it made me so sick and 2) my insulin and glucose tests came back normal so there really is no reason other than it *might* help with initializing ovulation...key word *might*. It may sound crazy, but I would rather try injections which are far more expensive and pack you full of hormones than be put on metformin again. I just H.A.T.E. that medication so much and shudder at the thought of going on it now after my body has been through so much.
I don't know what to do. I was so hopeful that when I took that dose of progesterone at the end of November that it would jump start my cycles again, like it did 2 years ago. But I was taking Metformin then and it's possible it only worked as a combination. I'm just so frustrated.
I think another reason I feel so up in the air about what I should do is because all of the facilities to get things done at are farther away. When we lived in Santa Barbara, there was a main clinic there where we could see our specialist and he had an affiliation with a local women's clinic where I would get my ultrasounds done and my procedures. Now that we live in the inland empire, our nearest office to see Dr. Surrey is in Beverly Hills (1.5 hours away) and we're not sure of where the closest clinic would be to get any ultrasounds or procedures done...we certainly can't be traveling to and from LA for everything.
And then there's the cost. We have money saved, that's not the problem. If we knew we could achieve our goal in X number of months, we could have a better idea of what to expect to spend but we don't. It could take 2 months or it could take 2 more years - none of the costs are covered by insurance and I still don't have a job. Our decision has been made to use what we have until we're not comfortable using it anymore and then re-evaluating our situation. We figure we have enough for up to 3 IUI's, but we need to find out which method of medication they want to put me on. I've already done clomid which affected my eye sight so that's out and the femara...well, we're not sure what came first, the heart palpitations or the meds so I'd rather not take that med again. That really only leaves me with injections - which are pricey. However, I've read that the success rate for injections, especially with women my age, are more successful than with clomid, so perhaps that is the way to go.
Again, I need to call my doctor but...I just don't want to. Maybe tomorrow.
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